What Would It Be?

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I was raised almost without you

All this time I loved you

Even if you're not here I feel you

In my heart and in my life I turn to you

You're in God's hand and sometimes makes me blue.

Your smile is still vivid in my mind

Those late nights that I will run towards you

When you return from worked then asked where I'm at

You got me a bag of sweet macaroons 

And all of my siblings get jealous.

It was a rainy night without the light

Everything is lost in the deep silence of the night

All I heard is a knocked on the door then a heartfelt fright

That was the night when everything fades alright 

And bring everyone crying and loose the tight.

From that day a part of me was lost

Mother and I stand along the happiest and rockiest path of life

I got bullies; I study hard; I am rewarded and strive more

Without you life is different; its like living in a strange world

I miss you.

What would it be if you were there...

At my birthdays when I get a year older

At my graduation when mother wore her proud smile

At my worst and best point when all is so emotional

I wonder what it feels to have a father.

What would it be if you were here...

Every day of my life reminding me how a man is

Every time when I get wounded and my heart bleeds

Every night before I go to sleep

I wonder what will you say to me.

What would it be if you were alive

Would you be a proud father of a boy like me?

Would you listen to my weird stories everyday?

Would you accept my individuality and my decisions? 

Would you fix my family tree and complete it for me?

Abnormal Heart

I am normal. . .am I?

I know I'm different and still in confusion

My heart is healed from destruction

Head over heels on your every motion

Letting all my feelings and emotion

Making all of these bizarre commotion

Yet I'm still lost in action.

My heart is normal. . .is it?

My heart is beating unusual than it used to be

I hope you notices me whenever the sun dive on the sea

My vision, the reasons and the story you foresee

That tells about me getting in to you baby

In a circulatory events of forbidden mystery.

All of you is normal. . .oh is it?

The first time I felt shivers deep inside my soul

Your stare made a furious blood rush in my all

The kindness you make bare all the truth about the fall

Yet you refused it and it is easily accepted call

I hope it will changed my hope to the great fall.

Us is normal. . .we are, isn't it?

We have a mutual diversion of world

Getting happiness in every veins we have

Our left and right atrium is full of mystic affection we can't explain

And the world outside us is killing us with their evil glares

Just because we are communal and they are prejudice.

I'm falling on a normal person. . .am I?

I guess this is so right at the wrong beginning

How can you and I drops on a happy ending

Where from the start its all business and suffering

I need you as a human, caring and sweet loving

I know this is unusual but I will keep it pumping. 

What's The Remedy?

CLARITY

Little talks, little walks, those little moments

In a summer haze it all turns in to ashes

People talk, people walk all the same way

And I have decided to see the other way

Same talks, old walks seems so soft

I want to make a difference all around the loft.

INSANITY

Little sadness, little madness is all I have

Life is a circle with an infinity sign at the center

Your sadness and his madness makes all the pink cloud

The melody of love is distorted and loud

Same sadness, old madness in all the same path

What made you crumble is always associated with math.

TRAGEDY

Little water and little fire is a poison in a bottle

 I try to cuddle yet it turns into a monster

Your water, my fire made this room full of desire

Rain keep on pouring and I am definitely your master

Same water, old fire turns the woods in to pieces of charcoal

And that's the same time you and I experience our final fall.

REMEDY

Little moves, little steps make a big hole

I've done that and I survive what was told 

Your moves and my steps now are on the opposites

It is better this way and all things are in easy transits

Same moves, old steps are on my garbage bag

Just the same old me and this is my remedy.

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Monotonous

Sleep, Eat, Study, Pray, Sleep

It's always this

How can I make a bliss

In a haste of one way hiss 

Then all of a sudden I miss to kiss

Why should I take a risk?

If I'm all bored with this.

I feel so monotonous

My life or maybe I make my own way

To make the urge here to stay

And forever then is not away

I got to do this from what the future lay

At least I'll do my part and I got to pay

All of the drops of sky in a gleeful way.

I am a zombie

That whole strange feeling

Feeling of interference whenever I'm walking

In the middle of the hallway where they keep talking

Talking of 'I Don't Knows' while there eyes is blinking

I made me to this silent child in the making

Who will talk to you and make you do some laughing.

I've got this

It's a teenager thingy

When every words uttered gets so stingy

Smells like burned paper with brandy

Tears you up to death of insecurity

And just leave you down below in misery

Yet you wake up all day and pretend that you are happy.

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- its been a while the last time I post something here....sorry. I got so busy on my study.

Pieces of Colors

Turn Around Every Now and Then

VIOLET or MAGENTA - Whatever you name it

Almost painting...

Maybe Not or Who?

Mr. Focal Point

She's on Yellow and Sorbetes.

School Diary: B&W

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Before the Yuletide Break me and few of my friends decides to do a little photo-shoot where we can add some dosage of fun in one of the most tiring and brain-damaging time of a semester ---- the  Preliminary Exam Week.

So as you see this is the outcome of our craziness. Its me and Vina, my friend, at the university quadrangle striking our pose and I hate my face here. . .I don't know why?

Empty Seats and Vivid Room

They y'all working it...even though some shots are stolen. 

Lucy on the image below seems to have four legs (awkward and strange at the same time). 

My Skull and Spike Ring...
I so love them.
It's the season of gift-giving can you please give me some? :)

I love this shot. A little smile and twinkle on my eyes.

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Sweet As SHE

It's another Birthday post. . .

Happy Birthday Sharede Quiros!!!! Ooops she prefer not to call her on her given name so let us call her "SWEET". Let us greet her a Blessed 20th existence. I've been with her for three years and I shed no secret with this young lady.

This poem is for you. . .

Sweet as She is a rare flower that blooms on the morning dew

Love and faith in God never loss in you

You speak a gift with reasons and cue

There is someone out there watching before we knew

All your questions will fade like air of two.

Sweet as She is like a priceless candy

When you stand up there then make someone happy

Just always remember to smile in glee

And just let me know if you're in your saddest tree

I'll run next to you with the whole girls beside me.

Sweet as She is like the greatest to ponder

When we're with you all we hear is a humble thunder

All I wish is that you'll find your lover

That can be your friend, a brother and provider

You will find him someday in a snap of a finger.

Thank you for being there at all times. We may have misunderstandings but always remember that you got a home in me. :) 

Party?

Nine Looks

Model? How I wish...if only I get a chance.

Oh the look above is my fave of these nine looks. . .I love the red triangle and look I get so accessorized.

This second look reminds me of my high school days. It has a teenage vibe in it that I can deny. Love the brown leather wrap I have.

Hey howdy you :)

This over-sized jacket/sweater I have is given to me by my brother. I love baby Milo.

Feeling so awkward and evil at the same time. . .what I like about the look above is the quirkiness of me in the photo plus my legs (I think) looks longer. hahaha 

The comfy stripe cardigan. Hey I love how my legs bend and my hair is done. Just saying.

Sporty me + Aqua Marine Triangles.

Why I'm biting that triangle? IDK :)I love the simplicity of this look from the color to the comfortable feeling it gives me. 

Twin-twins. . .Its a DIY Tribal Shirt. Feeling fresh when I'm into it. 

The Pants. Pink. I feel so whatever in this look. 

Lastly the beat glass. I feel this glass pinch some happiness inside me. Looks so modern and young.

"Just be Yourself. Just nail your Style"