What Would It Be?

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I was raised almost without you

All this time I loved you

Even if you're not here I feel you

In my heart and in my life I turn to you

You're in God's hand and sometimes makes me blue.

Your smile is still vivid in my mind

Those late nights that I will run towards you

When you return from worked then asked where I'm at

You got me a bag of sweet macaroons 

And all of my siblings get jealous.

It was a rainy night without the light

Everything is lost in the deep silence of the night

All I heard is a knocked on the door then a heartfelt fright

That was the night when everything fades alright 

And bring everyone crying and loose the tight.

From that day a part of me was lost

Mother and I stand along the happiest and rockiest path of life

I got bullies; I study hard; I am rewarded and strive more

Without you life is different; its like living in a strange world

I miss you.

What would it be if you were there...

At my birthdays when I get a year older

At my graduation when mother wore her proud smile

At my worst and best point when all is so emotional

I wonder what it feels to have a father.

What would it be if you were here...

Every day of my life reminding me how a man is

Every time when I get wounded and my heart bleeds

Every night before I go to sleep

I wonder what will you say to me.

What would it be if you were alive

Would you be a proud father of a boy like me?

Would you listen to my weird stories everyday?

Would you accept my individuality and my decisions? 

Would you fix my family tree and complete it for me?