Abnormal Heart

I am normal. . .am I?

I know I'm different and still in confusion

My heart is healed from destruction

Head over heels on your every motion

Letting all my feelings and emotion

Making all of these bizarre commotion

Yet I'm still lost in action.

My heart is normal. . .is it?

My heart is beating unusual than it used to be

I hope you notices me whenever the sun dive on the sea

My vision, the reasons and the story you foresee

That tells about me getting in to you baby

In a circulatory events of forbidden mystery.

All of you is normal. . .oh is it?

The first time I felt shivers deep inside my soul

Your stare made a furious blood rush in my all

The kindness you make bare all the truth about the fall

Yet you refused it and it is easily accepted call

I hope it will changed my hope to the great fall.

Us is normal. . .we are, isn't it?

We have a mutual diversion of world

Getting happiness in every veins we have

Our left and right atrium is full of mystic affection we can't explain

And the world outside us is killing us with their evil glares

Just because we are communal and they are prejudice.

I'm falling on a normal person. . .am I?

I guess this is so right at the wrong beginning

How can you and I drops on a happy ending

Where from the start its all business and suffering

I need you as a human, caring and sweet loving

I know this is unusual but I will keep it pumping. 

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I'm here, my life has its reasons

I knew it and I have to learn my lessons

Nineteen years of dreams and expectations

I always live with it and aim for position

Letting the hardship of a childish probation

The motherly unconditional love I felt in every season

Yet life has dealt its cards, tells me to create a motion.

I can do this yet I really don't know how

I'm not alone in this curve but things now are tough

All the air I'm breathing seems so intoxicating and I can't get enough

Time is a predator on its wilderness and this road really gets so rough

And all I can do is sleep, cry then fake a laugh

All of this melancholic material stuff

Makes me wonder if you or I will sustain to get-off my craft.

In life or love we fall but a little harder

Then you go and make it much harder

Uttering those promises of what I want or need and other

Comes with a spell of breaking them one by one and makes me weaker

False hopes again is like pouring like rain and sudden change the weather

Its not new to me yet my eyes now are full of water

Questioning there's nothing wrong writing hopes into permanent marker.

Its painted with kindness and splattered of dullness

Making all my wounds and untitled rhyme of sadness

Guarding myself at the forest of happiness

Wishing all I can is all what you want and gladness

I know I'll vigilant just like a warrior in the middle of the quietness 

Just a few steps more to free me from this restlessness

Enabling me fly like nobody do it.

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Pieces of Colors

Turn Around Every Now and Then

VIOLET or MAGENTA - Whatever you name it

Almost painting...

Maybe Not or Who?

Mr. Focal Point

She's on Yellow and Sorbetes.

SIX PETALS

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One thing is enough, a smile or a single laugh

In every split second or a half

Two cross roads and what is showed

A full moon in the midnight sky

A word of fake insincerity and I

That stings very hard and makes you die.

Six lines, bones and spines

When these hearts will shine

Stars and constellation up above

A buried soul six feet underground

You’ve got a box of paper weighs a pound

A seed of curiosity and vivid sound.

Do you wear that green sneakers

Paint the walls gray and glitters

Strike a pose in every matter

But would you take a look at that baby on the picture

With a mystic smile in a single shutter

Rectangular faces; different creature.

Hold my heart like these wild animals

Wear a look in perfect styles

Curly cars stops in pavement tiles

In a whole new world of you and I

Raising all the bars in plain capitals

Make me a man bursting more than six petals.

Ξ  Ξ  Ξ

Nine Looks

Model? How I wish...if only I get a chance.

Oh the look above is my fave of these nine looks. . .I love the red triangle and look I get so accessorized.

This second look reminds me of my high school days. It has a teenage vibe in it that I can deny. Love the brown leather wrap I have.

Hey howdy you :)

This over-sized jacket/sweater I have is given to me by my brother. I love baby Milo.

Feeling so awkward and evil at the same time. . .what I like about the look above is the quirkiness of me in the photo plus my legs (I think) looks longer. hahaha 

The comfy stripe cardigan. Hey I love how my legs bend and my hair is done. Just saying.

Sporty me + Aqua Marine Triangles.

Why I'm biting that triangle? IDK :)I love the simplicity of this look from the color to the comfortable feeling it gives me. 

Twin-twins. . .Its a DIY Tribal Shirt. Feeling fresh when I'm into it. 

The Pants. Pink. I feel so whatever in this look. 

Lastly the beat glass. I feel this glass pinch some happiness inside me. Looks so modern and young.

"Just be Yourself. Just nail your Style"

Its All Wrong

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Suddenly I realized its not going to happen

I got so drown and its all wrong

My admiration drive me crazy, its all wrong

I got so delirious over my dreams ye its all wrong

You is beyond my capacity and how can I carry on.

I can not bear it anymore; I wish I'll find a song

In my situation and inhibition its all wrong

In the society's eye its all wrong

You have your own disposition where I do not fit into; its all wrong

It never happens and never will do.

This thunder hit me and drops of rain pours

Though in your darkest nightmare its all wrong

I guess I'll be alone and its all wrong

I've prepared myself for this yet it feels all wrong

In pain and in gain I will not find home.

Clarity never haunted me until now

Still grieving and I know its all wrong

Continue watching you afar and its all wrong

Gravity never fails to hurt me; how I wish I was wrong

Of all this statements you were the only exception.

😉 😉 😉

All I Want

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How can it be when it is so impossible?

Differences and gender is durable

Age doesn't matter and I hope its that simple

I like your smile; the way you move; and you're humble

You and me together even the skies will crumble.

Who? You. . .

Meeting of our eyes even for a split second makes me blush

Everything in my world seems a sweet mash

I can't focus myself in an state of hush

While sitting here I just want to take time of lush.

Why I am writing this poem when I'm not even sure

All of my feelings and anxiety uncured 

My heart is at you and my mind is on a tour

I'm not even sure if you like me that leaves me unsecured

But then its you I like the most.

Should I stop the feeling or should I let go

What if there's a possibility

A hope than is little that tiny

Maybe I'll just prepare myself for a laughter or regret 

But its clear to me that all I want is you.

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Perks of Being Single

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No man is an island

Yet I'm here in a single gland

Trying to keep my feet on the ground

With a fire inside like a greyhound

Can not see a love that I finally found.

Freedom was given

Time has loosen

Patience was proven

I was with Him and enlightened

I learn to talk and listen.

Peace is too much

No one caress me nor touch

Guilty in every inch to my crotch 

Movies are all watched 

I feel so alone as such.

It is a choice

First it gives you joys

Chilled nights and morning moist

Two wide road in a hoist

You hold it till you found yourself lost.

Treacherous slopes

 Betraying hopes

Colliding loops of affecting scuffs 

Where is the one with eyes for soups

Rides with me in an endless proofs.

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